unprecedented

"what have i gotten myself into?" this was the first question that popped up my mind after deciding i would run for SC. though, i already promised my self that i would never ever join again, i just can't help it. it was due to the persistent begging and pleading of my teachers especially Ms. P.
"what are you going to do for the rest of the school year? just sit right there and bore yourself?"
i was guilty when he said that. in fact he's right, i was bored of the same, unchanging, regular activities in school. a lot of people-as in a lot- had-in every way- asked, begged, pleaded for me to join and they did make me feel guilty. in the end i couldn't take it anymore, so i said yes. and the moment i did, i regretted it. not really but kind of... i wanted to take back what i said but i can't. so i was finding all the, means of not joining.
"if i can't find our adviser, i won't join!" but i did found her. even though i wasn't looking for her. i was escaping also the candidates for the presidency but i just can't. they found me!
"why are you late?" (in passing the application form) i.... uh... was forced. actually not really. but it was me who forced myself.
oh great so i'll just deal everything that's happening now. so good luck me.

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