unprecedented

"what have i gotten myself into?" this was the first question that popped up my mind after deciding i would run for SC. though, i already promised my self that i would never ever join again, i just can't help it. it was due to the persistent begging and pleading of my teachers especially Ms. P.
"what are you going to do for the rest of the school year? just sit right there and bore yourself?"
i was guilty when he said that. in fact he's right, i was bored of the same, unchanging, regular activities in school. a lot of people-as in a lot- had-in every way- asked, begged, pleaded for me to join and they did make me feel guilty. in the end i couldn't take it anymore, so i said yes. and the moment i did, i regretted it. not really but kind of... i wanted to take back what i said but i can't. so i was finding all the, means of not joining.
"if i can't find our adviser, i won't join!" but i did found her. even though i wasn't looking for her. i was escaping also the candidates for the presidency but i just can't. they found me!
"why are you late?" (in passing the application form) i.... uh... was forced. actually not really. but it was me who forced myself.
oh great so i'll just deal everything that's happening now. so good luck me.

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what you thought was just a mere thought.

first day of school wasn't exciting as i thought it would be. in fact it was the total opposite of what i thought.

i was walking towards the school gates. i wanted to break into a run but it would be embarrassing to look at a 15 year old student too-excited-for-school. as i was walking, i was anxious of the fact that the teachers did shuffle us(read: no more star section). and it means that there is a great possibility that me and my friends will be separated. and that dreadful fact became a reality.

as i entered those school gates,i officially became a junior. i was both excited and nervous of finding my name in the lists of the different sections. i was approaching the list of names when my friends called me out. i was too eager to know from what section i belonged so i asked them. then the appalling fact shot right through me. i belong to another section while all my friends were together in the same section. i was panic-stricken. i asked again as if not hearing what they just told me. i thought they were joking or something. but they weren't. i wanted to escape the reality but i just can't. i was doomed! i checked all the names of whom I'm going to be with for the next 10 whole months, it was more than awful - which words cannot express. it was just great...plain great!

and how come other group of friends were in the same section together. it was just so unfair! i thought this was some kind of random picking or maybe it wasn't just as random as i expected it to be. and why is it that I'm the only one suffering from this miserable disposition?

now the thing which i must do is to figure out...how to survive?